Kiari501

...when you suddenly realize that you were living a lie? ...when it hits you that all the people you thought cared never really did? ...when you are crushed by the impact of knowing that someone who meant the world to you couldn't care less? Yeah. I don't know either. I just know it hurts.

Once again I find myself locked in sleepless hours of the night, trapped in an endless spiral of restless thoughts. Nothing new here. I've been pretty inactive for...who knows, at least a year. I blame high school for damning the one ounce of creativity I held and leaving me now, even in my pattern of insomnia where my few moments of success have been accomplished, to remain...without lack of a better word, blank. Too bad, all these hours awake, wasted :/

Since Christmas awhile! Lol. So, not that anyone really pays attention to these things anyway, a lot has been going on in my life, all of it AMAZING! My baby brother is going to be a whole month old tomorrow!! I've FINALLY made it up the ranks in choir class, just got back from my first trip to San Francisco, and best of all, I have the best boyfriend in the entire universe!! Feel free to argue that last one, I will win!! Hahaha! So, it's safe to say that life is pretty damn great right now, other than my two year long war against writer's block and my crappy camera keeping me from taking any worth while photos. I'm actually considering closi